The Hamster in the Wheel
I refer to the annoying, to-do-list-dictating voice in my head as, “The Hamster in the Wheel.” I never really know when the hamster will be running in her wheel, but once she starts it seems to spin faster and faster without relief. It sounds a bit like this:
I want to be a songwriter, so I will compose a little bit every day.
I want to be a performer, so I will get a gig and perform once a week.
I want to be a music educator, so I will teach songwriting workshops across the country.
I want to be a pop star, I want to be an entrepreneur, I want it tomorrow, so I'm going to skip lunch and dinner so I can keep writing this blog, and get exposure, and be discovered... and be happy...
...But what really ended up happening this week?
New York got oppressively hot and humid, I got sweaty and overwhelmed, and sooner than later I was eating my feelings and binging on Gilmore Girls.
Trying to stick to all of these goals in order to build something great ends up being too much pressure. Every day I feel like I haven’t been productive unless I have taken a step forward in each of my long-term goals. And if I’m not productive, well, then, well…..
WELL, THEN, WHAT?!
WHO CARES IF I WATCHED TV INSTEAD OF WRITING A DANG SONG?!?!
SNAP OUT OF IT!
The only way I know how to shut down the wheel is to do something that helps me forget what I’m “supposed” to be doing. The talking on the phone with my mom for an hour in the Urban Outfitters dressing room for emotional support while searching for something that doesn't make me feel like a whale... the Sunday yoga & coffee ritual with two close friends... surrounding myself with the people I care about.
We’re all too hard on ourselves to be great and successful and blah blah blah. And being alone in your own head can be quite dangerous for your self-esteem! Ignore the hamster, because the acts of spontaneity, creativity, and comfort with the people you love are where it's at, yo.
This is a petition to silence the hamster. Sign below if you believe.
Thank you for reading :)
P.S. Click here to view the full video of that breakfast meltdown.
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